Inspiration leads to exploration

I have always believed I had a lot to say but never took the time to say it. So I asked myself today, "why I never put my thoughts on paper" and have recently discovered it was for fear of finding out that may not have as much to say as I thought. I wanted to take the time to thank Ms Attayah Ali for leading me to this site and unknowingly realizing how her blog would inspire me to write. So THANKS MS ALI!

I will say this is my  first step to "perfecting success".  I shall entitle this step True expression! I took time yesterday to reflect on how many changes I've gone through in the last year. The last year to date has been undoubtedly full of the most changes I've ever experienced in my thus leading to the greatest amount of adjustments and realizations. One of the realizations made recently is my circle of influence.

People that know me might consider somewhat of a socialite. I could honestly say that I have been blessed with plenty of friends and no enemies in the world (that I know of). For most people this would be a great declaration that they wish they could say was true for their life, but for me it made me question my relationships with all these so called friends. I don't say this as a knock on my friends but moreso a knock on myself. Although this has been one of the most challenging yet liberating years in my life, through all my changes it has had little to no effect on my friends.

I have often heard "Ferg everyone knows you but no one really 'knows' you" or "Ferg what's your last name?". I could never understand the depth of this question even though some of these are people that I have known for years but now it has hit home. I have figured that its me! I have failed to let people really get to know me or better yet succeeded in not defining who I am. No people I am not having a nervous breakdown (I hope, LOL) but better yet self realization. So I will use this blog as an opportunity to let those who choose to know me get to know me as well as test to see how well I know myself.

So all I ask is for those that read my blogs to be patient with me and feel free to chime in as you see fit. As I progress along this journey I will continually ask myself and others "what is their true goal in life?". So do not get upset by this reoccurring question because I feel it leads to answers to so many others.


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